Upside-Down

how can i love you now

petty girl upside-down

your dreams are all broken

your ambition lost

you hold no interest of mine

unbuilt, a scrapped design

lied until realization hit

on deaf ears my deceit fell

how can i love an empty girl

a robbed case, a hollow shell..

Sleepy Me

your laughing at me:

saying i reverse,

to move closer to you,

like a car but worse...

i just want you,

to wrap yourself around me;

to be able to feel it,

and be too close to see.

i know my skin burns you

when i am asleep,

but i need your cool touch,

use it to soothe the hot dream in me,

i want to tangle;

to wrap myself around you too,

so the sleepy things i whisper

can be heard by you.

your laughing at me now,

pulling me close, holding me tight.

waking me a little, but not enough,

when i wake i won’t remember tonight...

Screwing Around

I can’t lie when you ask me

I want to but you can see

the black and blue all over my back

the idea that I'm gonna crack

the fate we share

i know he doesn't care

i called for the wrong reason

your chain's got my keys on

i need your body more

than the comfort you brought

or the time when he caught

us together and walked

but he came back when

you left me to go to work

you say you know it hurt

I hide it with a baggy shirt

He beats hard through

You’ll fuck him up good

I'm texting late to you

You know what to do

Find me alone again

Help my mind erase him

Bury yourself in my skin

I just wanna forget him...

Scream

You come to share a lie and break

the truth that lives inside and take

the fear within your soul and make it mine...

You never cared enough to see

me beg, faithful insanity

or be the one to bend the curse that thrives on me

Do you see me drowning? Do you even care at all...

Do you hear me calling?

Darling can you hear me scream your name?

If this is what you wanted now

use me to make it up somehow

drive me to turn away and bow to someone else

You could not show love any less

not healing hurt, not praising best

feeding the world with my disgrace was all your jest

You don't see me drowning. You don't even care at all.

You can't hear me calling

Darling can you hear me scream your name?!

Pretty Bad

little dainty fingernails,

tapping pink on window rails.

oh so cute but not as kind,

scratching eyes 'till they go blind.

little dainty silk ribbons,

clapping hands and singing songs.

a ribbon wrapped too tight can kill,

and with it she does what she will...

pretty merry little girl,

growing up to change the world.

but mother told the wicked lies,

now she's living for death's eyes...

Only Ache

The broken heart only hit me later

Only in a few hours

Only the next day

i only felt it break tonight

When i realized I'm alone

When there was nobody left to phone...

I only realize when I'm flying back

That I'm no longer flying home

Just a guest this time, a visitor come through

You will ask for your keys soon, and Ill give

Careful not to call too often, careful not to bother you...

Soon I wont be a visitor anymore at all, I'm sure you'll forgive me that

But I cant give up this dream as I have others, so willingly, for you before

Although you haven't been a visitor of mine for so very long

I suppose I wasn't worth the 2-hour dive which I made for you anymore...

Now its moving in on me faster, these cold-freezing pains

Growing around my weakened arms, which are never to hold you again

I know I've deserved with everything I did, to suffer forever in this state

Hollowness fills me up and clutching around my neck is that Ache...!