Phone Booth

Deep breath and another
i try to run faster.
they have caught me again
trapped in the ally's end.

Rain falling so hard
I'm slipping in the mud.
i have stumbled many times,
but i cannot dare to fall.
my arm hooks into a broken booth door
somewhere in Africa
I'm lost don't i know
i step under against the phone
if only i had your number,
a code, a key, a friend to call
someone to ease the fear


pale mud on my sleeve smears
the glass as i push my way out
crying now from the muscle ache
i don't want to run anymore!
i step and bound.
I'm running forever more...

Screwing Around

i cant lie when you ask me
i want to but you can see
the black and blue all over my back
the idea that I'm gonna crack
the fate we share
i know he doesn't care
i called for the wrong reason
your chain's got my keys on

i need your body more
than the comfort you brought
or the time when he caught
us together and walked
but he came back when
you left me to go to work
you say you know it hurt
I hide it with a baggy shirt

He beats hard through
You'll fuck him up good
I'm texting late to you
You know what to do
Find me alone again
Help my mind erase him
Bury yourself in my skin
I just wanna forget him

Riot

start a fire,
make me go insane.
ride the high and
get kicked off again.
Breathe the future,
never feel the same.

out of control and i love it this way...

paint the town red,
watch me start a fight.
fear is blissful,
dance with me all night.
Start a riot,
And then go running away

Out of control and I love it this way!

Big Kids Talk

Daddy works a long day.
He's been out since real early,
and he's coming home real late

So Mamma's making new friends.
They give her lots a money,
More than Daddy ever spends

Bigger kids on the street talk.
Calling her names i don know,
Saying she married Daddy for love

But now she getting love somewhere else
Cause Daddy's working all day
And hes coming home real late

I Don't Bite

People always tell me I'm a beautiful girl

but to me it's the meanest curse in the world

'cause when I'm shopping and i see a hot guy looking at me

he usually never has the nerve to speak!

Don't be shy boy - help me with me groceries

Spend a dime boy - take me for a nice ice-cream

I'm still kind boy - might be pretty but I'm still a reality

I'm alright boy - i don't bite boy

unless you want me to...

now when i go clubbing you can imagine my demise

I can't look any direction without meeting a pair of eyes

i don't have the time to watch you watching me

have some faith, honey take a leap

Don't be shy boy - come over say hi to me

Spend a dime boy - but me a drink and you'll see

I'll be fine boy - put me out of my misery

I'm alright boy - i don't bite boy

unless you want me to...

Guys like you are few and far between

don't you see there's no-one here with me

talk to me honey, before i get up and leave

you know everyone's staring at me, but i'm only looking at you...

Don't be shy boy - come over here,let's dance baby

Spend some time boy - No is not the word tonight, you'll see

I won't lie boy - I'm taking you home with me

I'm alright boy - I don't bite boy

unless you want me to...

Doorstep

I always prayed that we'd end up together,
But its like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
Its like shedding my tears in rainy weather.
If I told you how I feel I know you'd know better

Who would have thought it'd come to this conclusion,
Did you ever really love me or was that my illusion,
Am I standing here for nothing, screaming in confusion,
Do you even care at all that I'm here begging my profusion?

Or did I just waste your time?
Darling, where you ever mine?

Difficulty Breathing

Breath has been lost,
chase it back, keep it out...
only liquid fills me slowly,
breaking my shaking body...

screams sound silent ,
just as worthless, as my lungs, to shout...
bubbles-life giving air-floats away from my reach...
my frail life still,
my arms too heavy...
Give me air!
let it in!
gasp to breathe...

Die without...

To Starve

Feeling cold ain't the worst

doubling the pain is the thirst

the hunger is just as strong

fading as you move along

how long does it take to die

how much longer shall i breathless lie

in the sand from the storm

when will my body take deaths form

excruciating like this craving

i don't want help, i don't need saving

just pull me further and further away

keep all those who wish me harm at bay

don't fuel the hate, don't quench my thirst

don't love- God no! -your not the first

leave here and save your own soul instead

don't pity sinners who would be better off dead...

Not Her

your so beautiful, clawing your eyes out of their homes...
your so sensual, watching the blood drip from your palms...

let her suffer fate.
let her be on her own again.
as i watch filled with hate,
i can't help but enjoy her pain

your so adorable, writhing in agony forever more...
your so vulnerable,mine to possess now, like before...

i will use her today,
like i always have,
i can make her pay,
because shes not whom i want to have...

but so beautiful, darling aren't you just...? no.
and so admirable, pushing through with some kind of hope...

Let Me

Locked in your arms, but your so cold to me
aching for your lips to touch mine
and i know you want it too
but you're too proud to say it...

you scowl at me like i did something wrong
but its not a sin for me, honey, to turn you on
I'm drowning in the pleasures you withhold
driving me up the wall- stop doing as you were told!

i want you to stop holding back so strong, let me have a piece
i cant keep up this waiting with my eyes sealed shut
i forget how to breathe when I'm around you-so help me goddammit!
i don't want to fall asleep without knowing your in-love with me too...

Chessboard

Feeling like its all a game
feeling like its all the same
as before. don't try to find
someone that's not even on your mind
didn't look for sympathy
didn't look but did i see?
a sisters body broken in the ash
thrown out with all the other trash

feeling like a chessboard game
each move driving me insane
failing blindly but where's the wrong?
where's the friend for whom i long?
move the queen to save her breath
but leave the castle now to its death...
moving pieces on by one,
murdering until the game is won..

Pup

Mom runs fast and jumps in the air
Wind blowing caressing her flowing golden hair.
She can jump high, she can catch the ball
She can stand on her hind legs, pretty and tall.

One day Ill learn to do the same
Good boy will be said before my name
But for now I still chase my tail
Spinning round to no avail
So fast I go that I don't see
I'm moving further away dizzily

Laughing, lapping and stumbling around
I soon find my feet off the ground
And struggle to get up and see her face
My young mother in perfect poise and grace
But instead strangers pass me by
Caring not even to cast a pitiful eye

I spin around again this time to search
But all I see is the baker,butcher, florist and church
My ears droop and my tail curls under
How will I find my way out of this blunder?
My nose to the ground, but its of little worth
I am too young to have the sense of smelling the earth.

Paining is the soft howl as I feel the first fears aching
Then umbrellas open around me as rainclouds bring.
Soon its cold too but where to will I trample blindly?
If I leave this spot they might never find me.
I pad over to the dumpster to hide from the wet.
Hearing my tummy growl as I think of food I wont get.

I fold my paws one over the other to sag, lying down.
Maybe they'll be here soon, maybe this is just a small town
I feel a stinging in my eyes, I want to go home
But where I lay, pup on the pavement, is to me unknown.

Sexy-Crazy

Woke with the barrel of a gun in my face
Had no idea, I didn't wake up at my own place
She chased me out and almost shot me dead
Now shes playing annoying little games with my head

She told my friends I made the whole story up
That when I left the bar I had ran out of luck
But she took me home again that night
And started up one hell of a fight

Tried to smother me with a pillow, that crazy bitch
Like she had some kind of personality switch
Almost drove over me too the very next day
She said: it happens all the time, so deal with it, okay...

Feeling like I want to run away
But shes making it impossible not to stay
The second I want it to end she seems sane
Boy, was I fooled by that criminal game...
Her flirting and eying me deviously
Id have to go through with any plans she had for me...
Two days later I woke to the sound of my phone ringing
Heard her voice and remembered us the previous night singing
But, good lord! I was naked in the middle of Rome!
Didn't have a dime, didn't know which hotel was home!
I faintly remember dancing in the rain
So carefree those weeks that I still don't remember her name
But one truth about her keeps me from seeing her again
On my way strolling around naked in Rome
Some idiot robbed me of my phone!
Not to say that I would actually care,
But without my passport, how did she even get me there?